i'm waking up

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering: was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not...
'Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering, could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
But she can't...
'Cause she's gone gone gone gone gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses, with roses in my hand?
And would you get them if I did?
No you won't...
'Cause you're gone gone gone gone gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part"

I can't thank you guys enough for the comments and especially e-mails regarding my last few posts. I can't take credit for the recent lyrics. The last bit was Death Cab for Cutie, and the above lyrics are a John Mayer song that I've been listening to relentlessly for the last few months, and apparently it has gotten a quite a bit of air play. I'm not posting it because it's on the radio, I'm posting it because it's pretty much where I am right now.

I must have said something the other day on the phone because I got the, "I have to go." That's the story of my life. The absolute starting, middle point, and final page of my life.

The truth of the matter is, "she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone." Absolutely. Gone.

Again.

How do I combat that? Is there anything that I can say, do, or think to make something different? Absolutely not.

The job search is going right along. I wish I could say I was encouraged by the process, but I'm not really there yet. I have to start using my MBA.

I'm not very good at asking for prayer. But I need to get there. I would like to ask you to pray for me. I would like you to pray very specifically for the following: my walk, my job search, my health, and love. Pray that, "His will be done." Please.

and with that, I'm, "gone, gone, gone, gone, gone. . ."

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