Last request. . .

"don't sell out, or bow out,
remember how this used to be.
i just want you closer. is that all right?
grant my last request and just let me hold you.
don't shrug your shoulders, lay down beside me.
sure, i can accept that we're going nowhere,
but one last time, let's go there. . .
. . .grant my last request and just let me hold you."

It's been far too long since I've written. I know it's no excuse, but I have several blogs that i've written that were never "published" for one reason or another. Part of my issue is i've been in a rather self deprecating frame of mind lately, and anything that might have been published would have come off as such, and nobody wants to hear that crap. Least of all from me.

I've got to get back to writing here. It centers me. Truly. I've learned that if I write these posts to be "read," I write in a totally different form than if I just get things off of my chest. That isn't fair to me, and it certainly isn't fair to whomever has chosen to spend their time in my corner of the net. If you're taking the time to read this, it is "me" that you'll get. For better or worse, "me" is all I have to offer these days, and admittedly, that isn't much, but hell, "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and dog-on-it, people like me."

I'm still single. I felt the need to just get that out. I appreciate all of the e-mails asking if i'm still single. It's wonderfully pleasant of each of you to remind me that I am completely incapable of keeping myself in a relationship with someone worth "keeping" for any amount of time. It is of course at this point that I will undoubtedly get comments or e-mails reminding me that were it not for one or two occasions, I haven't been in a relationship with someone worth "keeping" in the first place. While I'll never agree to that in such a public forum, I will say that at times I agree that your line of argument may indeed have merit, but I've learned from all of my past failures, and one day, all of that will pay off in ways I never imagined (at least that what i'm praying for nearly daily).

I've decided that i really want a pair of rainbow flip-flops (or thongs to the weird among us). I'm not entirely sure why I feel that prevalent to point out at this juncture, but I need to get that out.

Imus has been really eating at me lately. Well, not so much Imus, but the way he has been literally shat upon by the masses. Al Sharpton called Imus racist. Isn't that a bit like Bill Clinton trying to tell someone the merits of remaining monogamous in a relationship? I don't know. I wish that I could say I had watched any of the Women's NCAA tourney and could make my own accurate judgment as to whether or not any of the Rutgers University women were indeed, "nappy headed ho's." But alas, I am a man and deep in my genetic code, I am forbidden to watch any Women's sport that doesn't have "mud," "wrestling," or "nude" in the title. Without having seen the women in question, these facts/questions remain:
1. Imus is, after all is said and done, a 'shock jock.' Doesn't that tile, in it's very nature, imply the words coming out of his mouth are intended to shock us? Just checking.
2. Were this not said on a national stage, would anyone have cared?
3. Were this said by a black man, would anyone have cared?
4. Imus got thrown under the bus by a whole slew of people.
5. Al Sharpton is by far the biggest racist this planet has ever seen (including even Hitler. . .Sharpton just hasn't killed anyone yet. . .at least that we know of), the fact that he isn't considered one simply because he is black astounds me.
6. Any one of the 34 rap albums released in the first week of April of this year make Imus's comments sound like they came from the pages of an animated children's book. If you think I'm kidding, you should "Throw some d's on that bitch. . ."
7. How does Howard Stern still have a job if we are this picky?

That's all I have in me for the evening. Next installment, Duke Lacrosse. . .

If you're reading this, thank you. I miss you.

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"Please do not create customer issue."
~Brooklyn


by the way, i'm down about 50 lbs.