help?!?

"It's been a while, since I could hold my head up high
It's been a while since I first saw you.
It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again.
It's been a while since I could call you.
And every thing I can't remember,
As messed up as it all may seem,
and consequences that are rendered,
I've stretched myself beyond my means.

It's been a while since I can say I wasn't addicted
It's been a while since I can say I loved myself as well,
It's been a while since I've gone and messed things up just like I always do,
It's been a while, but all that sh*t seems to disappear when I'm with you . . .

. . .why I must I feel this way?
just make this go away,
just one more peaceful day . . .

. . . it's been a while since I could look at myself straight
it's been a while since I said I'm sorry
it's been a while since I've seen the way the candles light your face
it's been a while, but I can still remember just the way you taste."

She called tonight.

Awesome. My worst fears were confirmed. My heart aches for her.

If you pray, please pray for me and please pray for she.

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